I did nothing and I did everything

This past weekend was fairly typical for us, which means we didn’t have any events scheduled, just the way I like it. It’s not that I don’t enjoy spending time with other people, it just means that all of the other stuff that HAS to get done gets sacrificed.

Let me explain. This weekend I:

  • Thought about, planned, ensured I had the ingredients, prepped and cooked 7 meals + had to consider of all those things, what could we feed Kate and what we she need to get fed separately
  • Loaded and unloaded the dishwasher 3 times
  • Washed and put away 13 pots and pans
  • Washed 10 bottles and 4 sets of pumping equipment
  • Washed, sorted and put away 7 loads of laundry
  • Swept the kitchen 9 times
  • Cleaned the counters 11 times
  • Soothed 5 owies
  • Cleaned 3 toilets (2 of which were cleaned twice because William is 3 and he is a boy)
  • Meal planned for next week, by coordinating evening activities and work schedules to determine what is realistic
  • Grocery shopped with two out of the three kids
  • Nursed Kate 12 times
  • Put kids in 3 time outs
  • Spent a night sleeping with her in a rocking chair as she is teething
  • Soothed teething baby, constantly by carrying her around
  • Played Magnatiles, Legos, 15 rounds of Disney Eye See It card game, did a massive toy clean up 4+ times
  • Gave 5 baths
  • Changed 12 diapers, including 1 blowout
  • + a couple of bonus things that don’t typically happen including painting the basement, visiting Lowes to pick out carpet by myself with 3 children and then going again to actually purchase it
  • + I did most of this by myself as Bill is focusing on finishing the basement so this doesn’t even include all of the awesome stuff that he was able to accomplish.

As much as this sounds like a rant and me complaining, it is in fact the opposite. I’ll go into work tomorrow morning and totally downplay my weekend and say ‘It was pretty low-key, we didn’t do much’ because we didn’t have an ‘event’ but let me tell you my weekend wasn’t anything close to ‘not much’. It was constant all day long, and I’m exhausted. Now I am sitting down (for the first time all weekend: going to the bathroom, falling asleep, changing diapers and feeding a baby don’t count) at 9:00 on Sunday evening and am giving myself major two high fives. To my fellow mom friends out there: You are rocking this too and give yourself the credit you deserve because no matter what you’re doing, it is never ‘not that much’.


Kate 6 months


I have been trying to figure out a way to write the first paragraph of this letter for over 3 months. I’ve written and deleted something probably 15 different times and nothing seems quite good enough. This month we had the honor of baptizing you and officially welcoming you into God’s family/church. And I’ve been attempting to put into words how Gods work is imprinted into the sparkle of your eyes, the soft touch of your cheek, the smell of vanilla on your hair, the roll of skin on your thighs, the calmness of your babbles, the love your siblings have for you and the awesomeness of God that I’ve seen in my life and hope you will too. After umpteen times of writing and re-writing, I’ve figured out that no words or story could possibly summarize the strength and importance faith can have in your life. I see, experience and thank God for his miracles in my life everyday. I pray that as you grow up, you too, will choose this path. Baptism, is the first of many, I believe my role is in being your mom. I promise to do my best to live a life of example and set a solid Christian foundation for you as well as pray that you will allow Jesus into your heart and that someday YOU will choose to put God at the center of your life.

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Everything about you is a little miracle from God my sweet girl. Your tender heart, your calmness, your adaptability, your sleeping and eating patterns are all little sprinkles of miracles from the big guy upstairs.


Most nights you sleep about 10 hours straight each night (7:30pm – 5:00pm). The first time you wake up, I’ll pop your pacifier back in and you’ll sleep for another 30-60 minutes. The second time you wake up, you’ll usually be happy and chatty as a bird. As soon as I enter, you quiet down and light up with a huge smile and squinty eyes once you see my face. You’re still not rolling over from back to front so we’ve continued to swaddle you. For bedtime, you’ll nurse and then I’ll swaddle you up, turn off the lights, put a blanket next to your face and snuggle with you in the rocking chair and you’re out in less than 5 minutes. If I’m in the middle of putting the big kids to bed, I’ll just put you down awake in your crib and you fall asleep, without a peep. Naps range from 2-3 a day and anywhere from 20 min to 2+ hours, in your crib swaddled in a muslin blanket. IMG_9384

Nursing is still going well. Each morning, I’ll nurse you on my left (non-dominate side) and then pump the right as I’ll get 6-7oz. Then for the remainder of the day I usually nurse or pump both sides. The morning session, I’ll usually get 5oz and 3-4 in the afternoon. Most nights, I’ve still been pumping before I go to bed around 11 or 12 and will get another 6 oz. So all up, I’m producing an extra 6-10oz of milk each day that I’ve been stock-pilling in the freezer. With all that said, I’m still super stressed about it, more so than I remember with the other two and I’m not sure why I can’t relax about it. Moving on. This month you started to show a ton of interest in my food. I started to give you little pieces of bread and then spontaneously decided to give you some baby squash one night and you LOVED it. You ate the entire container and would open your mouth every time I brought up the spoon. Considering we skipped the rice cereal, you did a pretty amazing job keeping the food in your mouth and not spitting it all out.

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You’ve FINALLY started to roll from your stomach to your back–it doesn’t happen very often, but you can do it. You love to lay (on your back) on you playmat and play with toys hanging from it. We also brought out the exersaucer this month and you do pretty good in that (as long as we have a blanket behind you to prevent you from flopping around like a fish.) This month you’ve also started to take your pacifier out of your mouth and put it back in with 50% rate. Your favorite place is in mommy’s arms and are as happy as can be just leaching onto me and tagging along wherever I go. If we put you down and walk away, you throw a fit, but are as happy as a puppy when we’re back within arms reach.


As far as the details go for your Baptism, the actual celebration was on Sunday, December 3rd. We celebrated at St. Andrew’s Church in Mahtomedi, same church your brother and sister were baptized at and that Mommy and Daddy were married at. All of your extended family was there to celebrate and you are blessed to have Uncle Dustin as your Godfather and two Godmothers, Auntie Beca and Auntie Rael. You were a total gem throughout the ceremony and wore the family heirloom baptismal gown, and the 26th baby to wear it! Following the ceremony, we headed over to Grammy and Papa’s house for a dual celebration for your baptism and Lexi’s 5th Birthday! _MG_3016


1st’s for the month: Thanksgiving, Snowfall, Food, Christmas celebrations (school concert, dance recital, music, decorations, shopping! (including Black Friday shopping!) sibling birthday party.


6 month stats

  • Weight: 15.1 oz
  • Length: 25″
  • Head circumference:
  • Clothes: 3-6 month
  • Diapers: size 2

We are so blessed to have you be a part of our family and I thank God for you and all of your little blessings everyday. You are perfect in every way possible and I love you to pieces little Kate the Great!



Katelyn 5 Months

Dear Kate,

I will be you a million dollars there has never been a cuter little chip. At the beginning of this month, you joined the crew in dressing up as Beauty and the Beast characters for Halloween. Lexi was Belle, William was Beast and you were Chip. Daddy made your onesie and I dug out Lexi’s 1-year birthday tutu for the pic.

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So far, you have enjoyed the luxury of exclusive breastmilk and it is going well. But being over anxious about stuff is kind of my thang, so i continue to stress about not producing enough. About half way through the month, I stopped nursing you in the middle of the night, which has enabled me to pump one side in the morning and I’ll usually get 6 oz. And then I’ll nurse you on the other side. At work, I pump twice a day and per the Drs. recommendation, started pumping both sides. The first two weeks or so, this helped ensure I would get a total of 5 oz during each session so I was set for the next day. By the end of the month, I wasn’t consistently getting 5 oz during each session–queue the stress. I am also pumping before bed each night and getting a little somethin’ so that usually supplements what I didn’t pump while at work. To sum things up, I don’t get as much milk when I pump as when I nurse, or you are more satisfied with the amount you get from the boob than what you get from a bottle. I’m most worried about what is going to happen in January when Daddy and I got to Arizona for a wedding for a couple of days. Will I have a big enough stash to get us through the time or will we need to do formula? I’m also trying to remind myself, that I had it much easier with Lexi and William as I didn’t really need to pump anywhere close to what I’m doing with you. I was home with Lexi for the first 7 months and William was at daycare and I could walk down and nurse him everyday so two completely different scenarios and I can’t compare you to them.

Last month the Dr. gave us the thumbs up to start giving you some rice cereal or food and you haven’t shown any interest in food yet so we’ll probably start that around the 6 month time frame.


High-five baby girl, I think you have finally figured out what a glorious solid night of sleep feels like! (knock on wood somewhere that I haven’t jinxed myself here). At the beginning of the month, I forgot about the ‘4 month sleep regression’ and once someone else mentioned it, I remembered what was going on. I stopped nursing in the middle of the night and when you would wake, I would rock/bounce you back to sleep. Around week 2-3 of the month, I was able to just stick the paci back in your mouth and just this past week, you’ve gone 4-5 consecutive nights of sleeping from 8:00ish to 7:30ish!!!! HEAVEN!! Except, for some odd reason, I still feel tired?!?! But a million times better than what it was!


You have shown zero signs of rolling, so you are still swaddled at night and in the day, you’re usually swaddled in a muslin blanket. You take about 3 naps a day, morning, afternoon and evening and they range anywhere from 20 min to 2+ hours. There is no rhyme or reason to the length–they just happen. Almost 100% of your naps are taken in your crib. Most of the time you fall asleep in our arms and we put you down, but we do also put you down when you’re very drowsy and you’ll just fall asleep on your own. Rarely, do you fall sleep and stay sleeping in your carseat. You usually wake up within 10-20 minutes of coming home–just like your big brother.


  • Very strong head control
  • Getting better at tummy time, but still don’t like it. You’ll roll from your tummy to your back–but not intentionally, just gravity/momentum taking over
  • Love the bath
  • This month you’ve learned about your vocal range and have developed this high-pitch screeching noise and do it all. of. the. time. And it drives your daddy CRAZY!
  • You’ve become much more interactive with your toys. You regularly grab them and play with them
  • This is a total shocker, but you’re less reliant on your paci then you have been in the past. From time to time, you’ll spit it out on your own and just chat away or just be Ok without sucking on anything
  • You are a smile machine and flash those pink gummy grins to anyone that glances at you, and then proceed to turn them into puddles with your big bright eyes
  • You’ve started to show some signs of separation anxiety and well whine or cry when I leave the room or am not within eye sight. Most of the time, you forget within a minute and move onto something else
  • As of this week, you’re too long for 3 month clothes, but 6 month are still pretty big on you
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Sibling Love

This is my favorite section to write each month because it keeps getting better and better. Basically, you and Lexi think each other are ‘the bomb’. Lexi is the only person who can make you laugh on demand. You think the world of her and she is equally obsessed. This love can’t be overshadowed by your big bro though. He is equally as awesome and is always singing you songs when you’re crying and gets into baby voice to talk to you and loves to make sure you are happy.



Kate, you are such a happy and mellow baby. Everyone loves everything about you and we are SO grateful to have you be a part of our family.





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Halloween 2017

I cringed when Lexi requested to be a princess for Halloween this year. My years of cute animal coordinated costumes were over and was so disappointed that I wouldn’t even get one year with all three of you in them.

As the weeks went on, Lexi was insistent on being a Princess, Repunzel to be exact and claimed she had been growing out her hair for a whole year for this. However, William had developed a very odd attachment to the Beast (and would often roar at people the way the Beast did when he was angry, from Beauty and the Beast)

I used this to my advantage and planted the seed that Lexi could be Bell, William could be Beast and Katelyn could be little Chip. They were thrilled with the idea and I was thrilled I could have them at least be coordinated–even if they weren’t in adorable animal outfits.

I bought Lexi’s because there is no way I could make a decent Bell costume. There weren’t any decent Beast costumes to buy so I pieced the outfit together and bought a Beast Hat. Then Daddy’s artist skills came in handy as he drew Kate’s Chip face on a onesie and I paired it with Lexi’s 1-year old Tutu.

It was pretty chilly out this year so we didn’t make it as far as last year, but the kids had a great time and LOVED all of the candy they got!!

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Katelyn 4 Months

Dear Kate,

When you were still in my belly, I gave a speech at your Auntie Sheila’s wedding about how awesome it is to have a sister, and sweet baby girl, you have one for the record books. I pray that this relationship only continues to get stronger but the love your big sister has for you brings me to tears. You’ll be pretty upset or crying about your gas pains, and while Lexi is doing a puzzle or coloring,  she’ll start singing you songs to help calm you down. She sings the traditional nursery rhymes with the normal words, but then will also go rouge and make up verses with your name in them. One morning, I went to wake her up for school and very groggily, she asks, ‘Is Beatle awake?’ and I said no, and she responds, ‘OK well then I’m still too sleepy to get up. Come get me when she is up.’ She loves to play with you and nobody can make you laugh more then Lexi. Her love for you is bone deep.



Sleep is going OK. I feel like you have regressed a little since I’ve headed back to work. You’ve started to wake up several times throughout the night and I’m working on giving you a pacifier or bouncing you a little and trying to get you to fall back asleep on your own without eating. You flip between sleeping in the magic merlin suit and a fleece swaddle, but probably favoring the swaddle. I’ll either bounce you to sleep (think me jiggling you in my arms, or doing squats) or I’ll put you in your crib awake with your beloved pacifier and you’ll fall asleep on your own, around 8:00ish. Every night the wake-up time is different but you usually need to eat between the 3:00 and 5:00 and then will fall back asleep until 7:30 or so. There was a week where you were getting up 4-6 times a night, which was pretty tough.


Naps are still pretty inconsistent too as far as the length and when they take place. But there is usually a morning, afternoon and evening nap and they are almost always taken in your rock n’ play. Similar to your sibs, they are pretty short (like 20-40 min). You will fall asleep in your carseat when we are out and about, but will wake up when the car stops or we carry you inside.



The eating adventure has been a bit of a rollarcoaster since I headed back to work, and probably the most stressful thing for me right now. I’m barely producing enough milk to feed you while I’m at work. My work schedule is all over the board, and I often don’t have control over it. This is hard because I feel like I need to stick pretty close to whatever your schedule is to ensure I pump enough during each session for the next day AND that when I get home I have enough to nurse you. If I don’t stick to your schedule (even if I’m off by a half hour or 30 min) my body doesn’t have enough time to produce the milk that you need and then I’m short. I have very little milk saved in the freezer for emergencies and I know that we can always use formula, but if I don’t have to, I don’t want to. You eat about 5-6 times a day (3, 7, 10, 3, 6, 8). Two or three of them are bottles depending on when I leave in the morning get home in the evening. When you have a bottle, you’ll easily chug 5 oz. I am working on trying to wean you from that middle of the night feeding, then I’ll be able to pump in the morning and get some extra milk to help build up the freezer stash and help reduce the stress around this a little. The Dr. also suggested pumping before bed each night and then pumping each size during each session (was only doing one) to help increase the production. IMG_8966


  • You despise tummy time and we rarely put you on your tummy on a flat floor because you spit up so much
  • Speaking of spit up, you still do this a bit. I regularly walk around with a spit-up stained on the shoulders of pretty much any shirt I’m wearing.
  • If there was a prize for the best smile you would get a blue ribbon
  • You love love love music. You love when anyone sings to you (especially Twinkle Twinkle). Your light up star is a fav toy and generally just clam way down when music is playing.
  • You’ve rolled from tummy to back a few times, but I think it is more from gravity than you intentionally rolling over.
  • You’re super ticklish, especially on your neck and we’ve heard your beautiful giggle
  • As I was reading your big sib’s 4 month post, I got nervous because they were both grabbing at toys by this point and I didn’t feel like you were doing that, but then realized we don’t give you very many opportunities to do so and as soon as I put you on your playmat your started to reach for toys
  • You still love the paci, but become a little less dependent on it each month.
  • You have super great head control–you’re still a little bobble head from time to time, but do a pretty good job holding it up
  • You’ve gotten pretty gassy. You’ll often wake up because of gas and scream in pain. I’m wondering if this is caused from the bottles so we’re trying the Dr. Browns bottles to see if that helps. When you’re in a lot of pain, you just scream with your mouth wide open and won’t even latch onto the pacifier to help calm down. Sometimes this even happens while nursing.
  • You poop every 4-5 days
  • You remind me a lot of William. I feel like you have very similar sleep patterns, eating tendencies and have his big beautiful eyes. Hopefully, you’ll also have his long eyelashes and dark complexion

Monthly Stats

  • Height: 24.25 “
  • Weight: 13.36 lbs
  • Head Circumference: 16.5″
  • Size 2 Diapers–and they are pretty big
  • Clothes: 3 months (but are starting to dabble into 6 month as you’re a little tall for some of the 3 month sleepers)

My sweet little Kate, we love you beyond words and I can’t imagine life without you. You bring to much happiness to your daddy and I and we are so excited to watch you grow and learn.



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The Thick of It

Around 6 pm, William called me into the bathroom to hold him while he pooped. I pulled up a stool wrapped my arms around him and tried to enjoy this sweet moment after a day of testing my patience. Within two minutes, his breathing and deepened into soft snores while a pool of drool soak through my sweatshirt.


You see, about 5 minutes prior to this, while sitting commando at the table he called to me, Mamma, I’ve gotta poop. A significant chunk was already sliding down his leg. It proceeded to fall onto the floor as he waddled his way to the bathroom. I caught the rest of it with some wipes, got him cleaned off.

You ask, ‘Why was he sitting commando at the table’. Well about an hour prior to that he declared he had to go potty, but by the time we got to the bathroom, he had already peed in his diaper? So we took that off, but didn’t have any underwear downstairs.

‘Why was he wearing a diaper?’ Funny you should ask, because about an hour before that he had pooped in his underwear, and Daddy was so fed up with the pooping in the underwear, he said, that is it, you’re wearing a diaper.

‘Why was daddy so fed up?’ Well about an hour and half before that, you had pooped in your underwear, and tried to clean it up yourself. While taking your underwear off, you whipped your duty all over your legs, then threw your underwear in the toilet and smeared poop all over the inside of the toilet and the seat. Then I think you tried to wipe your butt with three times as much toilet paper as you needed and proceeded to get it all over your hands and then I think you stepped on the poppy toilet paper that never made it into the toilet and somehow you also smeared it all over the top of the little potty. With your hands, legs, butt and the bottom of both feed covered in poo, it was decided that you were heading into the bath, even though you were supposed to nap. Especially because you had already pooped 2 other times in your underwear today prior to this fun little art project.

Six pooping accidents, 0 successes. Sigh.

Let’s also throw in the fact that Daddy was trying to grout the tile in the basement, Kate was extremely gassy and screaming unconsolably for many moments throughout the day and Lexi was a hot winey mess.

It has been a day my littles. We are in the thick of these moments that are so challenging. I’ve been told, that these days make you a better stronger mom and I’m really hoping they are true because man it was a tough day. As much as I rave about how good things are with three kids (because that is the 1st or 2nd thing nearly every person asks me). We have our moments and days that are just shitty.




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Kate 3 Months

Little Beatle,

About half-way through the month, we were at the Dr. getting Lexi’s ears checked and the nurses asked Lexi and William, ‘What is your baby sister’s name’ and they responded, ‘Beatle’. I had to quickly remind them that it is a nickname and her real name is Katelyn. To which they both started to argue with me that your name is Beatle. So like it or not, I think this one may be sticking around.

3 months old and life keeps getting better and better. You are sweet and mom’s irrational thoughts and fears have diminished (or shifted to something else) as you are full of smiles. You look around and try to find the source of noise and can easily identify your mom, dad, brother and sister and love to give us smiles. I also think we’ve gotten a few little giggles out of you. You like it when we tickle you or bring your toes to your nose. There are also lots of coos and conversations to be had. I’ll say something, and you’ll coo back, and I muster some other noise out behind my ridiculously huge smiles (from your sweet noises) and we’ll go back and forth three or four times. Love these sweet innocent moments–just soothes my soul.


You’ve started to show interest in your light-up, song-playing star on the playmat–which was a favorite toy for both of your older siblings. I have a hard time figuring out when to put you on it. If I do it after you eat, you spit up a lot and then lay in your spit up. But if I wait too long, you’re too tired and crabby. Lexi and Bood are convinced that you can play with toys and regularly give you things to play with while your eating. Your head control has gotten pretty strong. You bobble around a bit, but I can put you on my chest/shoulder and you keep your head up or you will snuggle into my shoulder and suck on it. You love to be held and carried. I’ll put you in the Mamaroo or the bouncer and you’ll start squawking, but as soon as I come into sight you stop. Occasionally, I’ll pop a pacifier back into your mouth, but about half the time you’ll spit it out and start crying when I walk away. You are a little socialite.


Sleep is still pretty good, not as good as it was though. Most nights you wake somewhere between 3 and 5 and then you usually wake up for the day between 7 and 8, even if you don’t need to be fed. You continue to cat nap throughout the day for 20 – 60 minutes and still nap between each feeding. You love to have a blanket wrapped around the back of your head and on each side of your face, it just soothes your little soul. Naps are usually taken in the rock n play and night time is in your crib, swaddled. You got too tall for the newborn swaddles so we had to move up a size and we only have cotton ones of those and they stretch a lot so it is really challenging to get you tight enough–which is why I think you’ve started to wake in the middle of the night more frequently.


Eating for the most part is going pretty well. You nurse every 2.5-3 hours to the minute during the day. However, we’re in the process of figuring out a new rhythm now that I’m back at work. You’re wanting to drink 4-5 ounces of milk in each bottle, but I’m producing about an ounce less than that each day. Also, I have been working shorter days, so you only need to take 2 bottles, but I don’t think that is going to fly when I’m back to working a full 8-9 hours a day (plus my commute) so I may need to add another pumping session, we’ll see. I’m also hoping that we can get you sleeping through the night consistently because, duh, mama wants good sleep and then, I’ll have more milk to pump in the morning before I leave and we would be in better shape. I definitely do not have the stash of milk like I did with Lexi and William. I’m really praying I’ll be able to nurse you all the way through like I did with the other two, but time will just tell I guess.


Also interesting observation–you almost NEVER fall asleep nursing. You’ll pretend like you’re sleeping but the moment I move, especially to burp you, you wake up. You’re also a constant mover, like you’re brother. You’re always nuzzling your head and moving it around while you’re sleeping.

Which leads me to the next big major milestone. I’ve gone back to work. Cue all the whining from me. I shouldn’t whine, because overall, I really love what I do. I would say my exact role is in transition right now, but I do get really energized by the work, which is awesome and makes it a million times easier to be away from you munchkins. If money and health insurance and big things like that didn’t matter, I would for sure be home with you guys, but you do get to be home with your daddy, which is so awesome on so many levels. So I’m going to go ahead and tell myself to zip-it because in the grand scheme of things we as a family are so lucky to be in the position that we are.


No major updates on the two big kids. They are still so beyond in love and obsessed with you, and it is so sweet. Lexi will only run errands with us if you’re coming with us. You’re also her top priority each morning. She wakes up and comes in and asks where you are. The moment she hears your little cries, she is asking if she can go see you. I hate to even say this, but she is almost a little too overboard with you. She wants to see, hug and kiss you so frequently, she often wakes you from your naps, which really drives me bonkers. You seem to think they’re pretty great too as you give them lots of smiles. Daddy has caught some great ones with you and them. IMG_8864

Other noteable things about you at 3 months:

  • You like your bouncer and do OK in your carseat. The mamaroo is hit and miss. Most of the time, you don’t like to move, but do OK if you’re just watching life happen around you.
  • Your legs are starting to fill out and have stated to get little rolls on them.
  • You still wear a size 1 diaper and are in 0-3 month clothing. They’re still pretty spacious on you, but I think they will start to get too short pretty quick.
  • You poop about every 4-5 days and when you do, you’ll poop like 4 times in a day. I think we’ve had 3 blowouts so far.
  • You do pretty good putting your head up on tummy time, but you like it less than you used to as you almost always start crying in the first 2 minutes or so. We probably don’t put you on your tummy as much as we should. Similar to your back, you always spit up a bit.
  • Most people comment that you look like William. I think it’s the eyes. You both have big beautiful eyes! (you also have a beautiful completion and are just a really pretty baby)
  • You still love that pacifier, but aren’t quite as dependent as you were last month. You regularly spit it out and just hang out without it.



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